Brilliantness!

So ... I now have a new (real hair) wig. I feel MUCH MUCH MUCH more confidant. (I know I sound like an advert ... I can't help it.) It has been tested to the limit. I have slept in it. I have wandered into a December sea in it (I'm impulsive). I have worn it in pigtails. I have worn it down. I have brushed it and brushed it just for the sake of brushing it. It is wonderfully soft. It feels different to a synthetic wig. & the idea of wearing hair someone else grew ... appeals to my sense of the macabre. I want to show it off. The evening before last, I did. I performed poetry at a theatre (open-mic). And, although no-one there knew (presumably) that I was wearing a new wig, so there was no opinion-gauge-ing, I felt A LOT more confident than I would have done otherwise. I wandered up and down outside the train-station on the way there, admiring my reflection in the windows. MOST enjoyable. I strode up onto the stage and (despite the fact that I was actually SHAKING with stage-fright) gave what I consider to have been a successful performance. And that was partly because of my increased confidence. It is also very cool to be able to wander out into the communal hallway for my post without doing anything to my hair. I look forward to cooking for people (because, before, I couldn't go near steam, in case my wig was damaged by the heat - that goes for drinking hot coffee, too). I look forward to worry-free sleepovers - knowing that my wig won't get skewed. I look forward to all sorts of things! Yes, it cost me more than my wigs normally cost. However. I am enjoying every penny of it. So it's worth it.

All of the above is not to say that wearing a real hair wig will be the right choice for everyone. Thus far, though, it seems to be the best choice for me.

I am ONE WEEK PULL FREE! Which deserves capitalisation, methinks. This is a TREMENDOUS improvement for me. And I have done it without really thinking about it. Perhaps I have been super-happy because of my new wig. Perhaps it's because my hair isn't really available to to be pulled out. Perhaps it's because I feel more confident that I am not forever doomed to succumb to the Trich. I don't know. What I do know is that I'm very happy!